i wanna start everything over again
Скучнее и пустее этого места наверно нет ничего.
i wanna start everything over again
From Ashes to New - Panic
From the outside looking in
Yeah, you see a smile on my face, but it's so different from what it is
This cruel and unusual punishment
I try to stop the thoughts, but end up doing it all again
It's a dark cloud over my head
It changes how I see life till I forget how to live
Till I forget what I am, is it the devil within?
Or is it panic that I'm living just to see how it ends?
Why is there nothing but this feeling inside?
Got me acting like I'm outta my mind
Can't breathe, can't sleep, I'm fine
I tell myself I'm fine
But I'm gone, I'm caught in a panic
I'm lost and I'm damaged, can't find my way
All I want is someone to save me
'Cause I am fading and I can't escape
Every night I've been losing sleep
Getting chased by the feeling that's taking over me
I'm in a panic, and I'm lost inside the static
Getting buried alive with the skeletons in the attic
Can I let it go or let it take me to the grave? Yeah
I'd give it all just to make it go away, yeah
I burn a hole in my soul when I pray
I got one inside the chamber, and it's calling out my name
I pretend that I'm fine inside
But I'm losing my fucking mind
I pretend that I'm fine, but I'm buried alive
And I'm losing my fucking mind (I tell myself I'm fine)
From the outside looking in
Yeah, you see a smile on my face, but it's so different from what it is
This cruel and unusual punishment
I try to stop the thoughts, but end up doing it all again
It's a dark cloud over my head
It changes how I see life till I forget how to live
Till I forget what I am, is it the devil within?
Or is it panic that I'm living just to see how it ends?
Why is there nothing but this feeling inside?
Got me acting like I'm outta my mind
Can't breathe, can't sleep, I'm fine
I tell myself I'm fine
But I'm gone, I'm caught in a panic
I'm lost and I'm damaged, can't find my way
All I want is someone to save me
'Cause I am fading and I can't escape
Every night I've been losing sleep
Getting chased by the feeling that's taking over me
I'm in a panic, and I'm lost inside the static
Getting buried alive with the skeletons in the attic
Can I let it go or let it take me to the grave? Yeah
I'd give it all just to make it go away, yeah
I burn a hole in my soul when I pray
I got one inside the chamber, and it's calling out my name
I pretend that I'm fine inside
But I'm losing my fucking mind
I pretend that I'm fine, but I'm buried alive
And I'm losing my fucking mind (I tell myself I'm fine)
понедельник, 17 августа 2020
i wanna start everything over again
i wanna start everything over again
Я тут внезапно вспомнил какой же я поехавший на самом деле. Может и абсурдно, но мне и правда легче прежде всего от таких штук.
И самое лучшее что я могу для себя сделать это продолжать связывать все вместе и замечать всякие особые только для меня мелочи.
И самое лучшее что я могу для себя сделать это продолжать связывать все вместе и замечать всякие особые только для меня мелочи.
воскресенье, 16 августа 2020
i wanna start everything over again
Silverstein - Stop
Feels like you're living in my head now
A tidal wave through a ghost town
My vision blurring like a watercolor
I'm washed out now, I'm washed out
Is there something I can do now?
It's like I'm singing out of tune now
Just trying to keep my head above it all
It's no use now, I'm washed out
I thought that I'd escape
But I never really had a shot
I thought that I could shake it
But I know that it's never gonna
Stop until my heartbeat does
Can't remember who I was
Before you came through
And I know that it's never gonna (stop)
I think I've gone over the edge
Is this as bad as it's gonna get?
I think I'll drown in my own regret
It's no use now, it's never gonna
Stop until my lungs give up
Never thought I'd self destruct
Before you came through
And I know that it's never gonna (stop)
It's a beautiful place to drown
Last breath is a constellation
No light gets this far down
And I know that it's never gonna
Feels like you're living in my head now
A tidal wave through a ghost town
My vision blurring like a watercolor
I'm washed out now, I'm washed out
Is there something I can do now?
It's like I'm singing out of tune now
Just trying to keep my head above it all
It's no use now, I'm washed out
I thought that I'd escape
But I never really had a shot
I thought that I could shake it
But I know that it's never gonna
Stop until my heartbeat does
Can't remember who I was
Before you came through
And I know that it's never gonna (stop)
I think I've gone over the edge
Is this as bad as it's gonna get?
I think I'll drown in my own regret
It's no use now, it's never gonna
Stop until my lungs give up
Never thought I'd self destruct
Before you came through
And I know that it's never gonna (stop)
It's a beautiful place to drown
Last breath is a constellation
No light gets this far down
And I know that it's never gonna
суббота, 15 августа 2020
i wanna start everything over again
Slaves - Cursed
Too sick and tired
Don't wanna wait a year
I fake a smile
Inside a broken mirror
You count the reasons why we'll never make it far from here
I'm gonna try to disappear
And when it rains down
You keep your hands out
I know you're wishing that one of your plans would pan out
Somebody told me
It's not in my control
I get the message but I still might take it personal
Our lucky stars are falling down so hard it hurts
I'm sick of being lost
And keeping fingers crossed
Lately I'm getting the feeling
Nothing works
Caused we're cursed
And she says so am I
I didn't wanna believe it
Each step forward
Puts us ten behind
I'm waiting on a sign
Like it or not
We're running out of time
We look for signals but they burn up in the atmosphere
Close enough to make it clear
Will we break or we bend
Just to lose it in the end
We're too old to play pretend
Should I go or should I stay
Will we ever be okay
Or am I just getting in your way
Too sick and tired
Don't wanna wait a year
I fake a smile
Inside a broken mirror
You count the reasons why we'll never make it far from here
I'm gonna try to disappear
And when it rains down
You keep your hands out
I know you're wishing that one of your plans would pan out
Somebody told me
It's not in my control
I get the message but I still might take it personal
Our lucky stars are falling down so hard it hurts
I'm sick of being lost
And keeping fingers crossed
Lately I'm getting the feeling
Nothing works
Caused we're cursed
And she says so am I
I didn't wanna believe it
Each step forward
Puts us ten behind
I'm waiting on a sign
Like it or not
We're running out of time
We look for signals but they burn up in the atmosphere
Close enough to make it clear
Will we break or we bend
Just to lose it in the end
We're too old to play pretend
Should I go or should I stay
Will we ever be okay
Or am I just getting in your way
17:54
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Ну все лето кончилось. Мерзну. Думал просто сам по себе замерзаю. А оказывается, +8. Как же холодно, блять. Даже для ночи это слишком.
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пятница, 14 августа 2020
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пока копался в некоторых старых файлах, наткнулся. раньше веселило.
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четверг, 13 августа 2020
i wanna start everything over again
Как же раздражает. Все что лишнее попадается на глаза. У меня с давних пор одно соо в избранном, а сейчас бесит это мельтешение. И отписаться бы уже нафиг, но изредка бывает чего новое и из любопытства гляжу, хотя в большинстве одно и то же.
Надоело все. Будто у меня вообще есть время на всякий мусор, если мне и на себя не хватает. Закупориться бы в своем мирке и все, но даже так то одно, то другое возникает.
Комп после обновления еще больше тупит и звук чаще отключается, что приходится перезагружать. Я устал от проблем. Хочется тупо лечь и не вставать никогда.
Надоело все. Будто у меня вообще есть время на всякий мусор, если мне и на себя не хватает. Закупориться бы в своем мирке и все, но даже так то одно, то другое возникает.
Комп после обновления еще больше тупит и звук чаще отключается, что приходится перезагружать. Я устал от проблем. Хочется тупо лечь и не вставать никогда.
i wanna start everything over again
Soldiers of a Wrong War - Out Of Time
Am i becoming so suspicious,
Running but i’m always out of time,
Sometimes i feel like nothing’s going right
I’m not the type to scream and shout
How could you think this would be fine?
You brought me to the point i’m sick n tired
I won’t give up without a fight
Am i becoming so suspicious,
Running but i’m always out of time,
Sometimes i feel like nothing’s going right
I’m not the type to scream and shout
How could you think this would be fine?
You brought me to the point i’m sick n tired
I won’t give up without a fight
07:19
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среда, 12 августа 2020
i wanna start everything over again
Silverstein - Coming Down
High above the city street
We're looking down at the space between
You've got a dare for the devil in me
What are we doing?
I close my eyes and in the dark I'm free
I know who I was but that's not me
And let's not pretend you don't want me to leave
What are we doing?
I've been falling so long
I forgot what it feels like
To be alright
I've been falling so long
Can't see me now
I'm never coming down
Through the noise and flashing lights
I felt the cold night air telling me new lies
And let's not pretend you didn't realize
What you were doing
Too late, never the same
Too many stories with nothing to say
So let's not forget we're still drifting away
What are we doing
This was never gonna be anything like love
And all I had was always too much or not enough
We were never gonna do anything but drown
And all I know is I'm still high in the clouds
High above the city street
We're looking down at the space between
You've got a dare for the devil in me
What are we doing?
I close my eyes and in the dark I'm free
I know who I was but that's not me
And let's not pretend you don't want me to leave
What are we doing?
I've been falling so long
I forgot what it feels like
To be alright
I've been falling so long
Can't see me now
I'm never coming down
Through the noise and flashing lights
I felt the cold night air telling me new lies
And let's not pretend you didn't realize
What you were doing
Too late, never the same
Too many stories with nothing to say
So let's not forget we're still drifting away
What are we doing
This was never gonna be anything like love
And all I had was always too much or not enough
We were never gonna do anything but drown
And all I know is I'm still high in the clouds
i wanna start everything over again
Опять думаю о том, что уже за всю жизнь не пересмотрю все что у меня накопилось из инфы и всего что я делал.
Странно осознавать что мой багаж одновременно неподъемен и одновременно ничто. Все ушло. Даже я сам уже не тот.
На днях вспоминал эту песню. Все тускнеет, даже яркие пусть и отрицательные ассоциации, хоть и не сразу. Вечен только вакуум.
Странно осознавать что мой багаж одновременно неподъемен и одновременно ничто. Все ушло. Даже я сам уже не тот.
На днях вспоминал эту песню. Все тускнеет, даже яркие пусть и отрицательные ассоциации, хоть и не сразу. Вечен только вакуум.
вторник, 11 августа 2020
i wanna start everything over again
понедельник, 10 августа 2020
i wanna start everything over again
i wanna start everything over again
почему даже имея предчувствие я никогда не мог предотвратить всякие пиздецы. даже те или особенно те что зависели от меня и моих действий или были спровоцированы ими же. но это как за секунду до понимаешь что падаешь со стула но падение уже неизбежно. хотя на самом деле больше в данном случае. это чувство было гдето рядом еще с вечера.